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Don't say you're from New York if you're not from Brooklyn, Queens, the Bronx or Nebraska!!
Hello my readers,
I have made my grand return to my home, my city, my coast. I have been home for a few days, finally got to see the mets live and watched them lose to the Braves after this win only days before. And, although we have a famous rivalry, a mets game is always so friendly that I just enjoyed being there. I hope to go to a busier, non post-poned game where everyone will sing the rest of Lindor's song (everyone loves a girl dad). If they trade Lindor I will cry and I hope Mr. Met sees this. I will cry.
| its here!! |
| the loss since Hattie was here |
The Oregon Trail does not seem to have the same star power in the American mythos like the Mayflower or the Civil War, which may be a good thing. I think this allows us to be more nuanced about it without the push back from the Daughters of the Revolution or the Daughter of the Confederacy. I may be wrong, and I believe any historical event in which the brave and strong white americans are often well defended from any sort of percieved attack. Lewis and Clark's Expedition (who's wikipedia page I read like an audio book to The Boyfriend, always almost pronouncing Clatsop as Catslop) is a less talked about event, comparatively, though it is an interesting part of history in which Sacagawea is elevated, almost above the role she really played and York, who I had never heard of, is excluded. What does that tell us about what we want to come from this event? My reading is that we want to be assured of and maybe inflate how much Native people agreed to and participated in the States' expansion. York's erasure, to me, comes from our stressing of the importance the expedition had as advancement, future-looking event and our glorifying of two men. Slave owning does not align with those characters.
Oh yeah, Chimney Rock. It was hot, about 100 degrees and dry, worse than New Mexico's solid 80 something, but we had not reached Wet USA yet, so tolerable for me. We walked pretty near to it, though the trail did not get all that close, and we parked as far as possible by accident.
| its like walking up to the beach in the sky |
After doing 2 out of the 3 dune challenge (My fault, I thought trail 8 would be just like trail 7, same destination, just not part of the challenge), we got to the beach. Chicago was on the horizon and Lake Michigan is always seems to look tropical when the sun is out. It was lovely and I started a small rock collection while combing the beach.
| my sand walking techinque also brough home some sand |
Now that I am home, I am cleaned up and excited. I still do not have a job lined up, but I am back on the grind. I've applied to about seven or so since I got back. I wrote some letters on the road and I hope to write some more. My
birthday is coming up and I'm growing up and I am still spending too much money. I am nervous about the next apartment and I am so ready to start building my new life. Everyone I've met since the move has someone in Somerville, moving to Somerville or lived in Somerville. It's trippy!I also have seen lots of old friends back home and it is strange how much has settled since graduation, except for me, I have been moving a lot. But I've decided to stick to my roots and stay on this coast for a while, staying with my cats and my friends and my family. But who knows, I do love a big move. For some reason.
New York is home, seeing the Mets makes me never want to leave, but I can't be here and a child forever, its already over and I must move on and work hard and make something of myself.| my new friend, buffalo gourd |
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I really have not been watching movies but I think I shouldn't force it. I've seen 37 out of my goal of 50 films and so I think I am doing just fine. I could have seen more, technichally I could've seen a thousand by now, but I am really a girl of a million hobbies.
| this graph is outdated, from when it used to be a sheets endevor |
I think my problem with not watching anything but Dr. Katz professional therapist uploads and Vinesauce is that I have a routine, I don't have a TV, and its really hard to find anything anymore. And also my horrible horrible horrible current wifi situation. If I did go back to anime, that blue section wold really start to take up most of that pie.
A lot of people do not assume I am someone who knows anything nerdy because sometimes I wear skirts and also I already know wayyy too much about 18th and 20th centuary history. But I had a few years long phase that ended when I discovered Marie Antoinette (2006) and I replaced it with movie watching. And now I have youtube which I consume so much more of but pay attention to so much less.
I am hoping to change my routine with a change of location and perhaps you might see some media reviews in your very special future.
Okay, that's it for a little rambling and something more organized to come soon (pleasepleaseplease)
Love u all!
Personal Manifesto for Tomorrow because I am going to bed now.
I am going to use my laptop.
I am going to use my laptop and I am going to watch movies, not videos.
I am going to use my laptop to make things. I am going to stop playinng Tomodachi Life Living the Dream for a week. Seven days.
I am going to do the dishes when I get home tomorrow, I am going to sit at my desk, which I am going to clear.
I am going to figure out what is wrong with my wifi and I am going to have a stable wifi connection.
I am going to get an email from one of the jobs I applied to and they will want to interview me and they will love me.
I am going to restart my laptop and my wifi will work.
If I let myself be more intentional with my evenings, I can achieve more in less time. I will go to bed earlier, I will have less headaches and I will watch the sunset. I will not realize my room is dark and the sun has set before I decide to make dinner.
I will watch a lot of movies. I will watch so many movies and read so much of my book.
I am going to put new batteries in my CD player and listen to CDs and the radio.
I will wear sunscreen.
I will accept where and who I am, with the intention to improve, move closer to my goal. If I have an apartment, I need a job and plan and drive to make, volunteer, learn, go out.
My wifi will work.
The library wifi will stay connected for more than three minutes before making me sign in. I will never have to sign into this library again.
I will have so many YouTube videos waiting for me when I am ready to reapproach YouTube.
I will find something else to do than look at Pinterest. Pinterest is okay when I am not home, but when I am home and I have my book, I do not need to look at Images.
I am going to use my laptop.
I am going to recover through making, I am going to have less headaches, I am going to feel successful, and I am going to steal ibuprofin from work, but not too much. I do not want to hurt my liver.
I am going to use my laptop and I am going to post so much this post won't be on the main page in a week, when I am back to playing Tomodachi Life. I will then introduce you to Tomodachi Life and it will not be awkward that you and tomo are fighting for my attention.
My wifi will work for more than a few minutes and
I am going to use my laptop.
I'm going to have a balcony!
I have an apartment in Somerville, MA!! I refuse to live anywhere that doesn't have the most rickety looking landmarks and anything younger than baby Syracuse founded in 1820. I am extremely exited for a billion and one reasons, one of the highest being container gardening on my first ever balcony. I also can't wait to have multiple roommates and a real TV. Sometimes, it really sets in how survival mode Santa Fe has been for me. I hope to one day not have to choose between fun and necessity next time I am in this city. I want real snow and real store hours. I want a deli.
The last major pieces I need are a successful moveout and a job lined up. I have applied to enough spray-and-pray fake indeed positions and now I am using references and cover letters. PLEASE HIRE ME!! I will do anything for $20 an hour full time.
I have moved on a bit from KSFR. I like it when I want company. But when I am writing and I am thinking and especially when I am applying to jobs, something I want a stream of every jazz song ever and a few ads for the third annual whiskey and cigar festival. So I have been listening to station 101.5, the Cat. I am listening to it now and I really like their choices except for their jazz vocal pieces. Those are either the wonderful classics or someone doing some horrible cover. Often a white man doing something his voice wasn't ever meant to do and he sounds cheesey.
Okay, I must go to bed and not ramble about something I know I could make an organized post about. I need to go to bed to prepare for work and work and work tmr!
Goodnight Krilltopia! ๐๐
I love you KSFR
I've been listening to a lot of public radio as I wait for vinesauce to upload. The station I have found is KSFR (101.1 in northern NM). You can check in on their site, which also means I can listen in wherever I am. I like how it can be anything and there's nothing I can do about it. I started my morning with a story about the Gaza Flotilla and then listened to this, which is the closest I've ever gotten to actually reading Marx.
I also like to listen to the music they play from all sorts of genres. If I don't listen to enough genres duirng the week I get bored with music. I've only become interested in the past day or so. I haven't actually spent a lot of time with the station but I 've already experienced so much. I really loved Jazz et Cetera which I did some stretches to before work on Friday.
Other things going on include being tired, applying to jobs and thinking about this drawbridge opperator job I applied to. I don't really think I'll get it, I have almost no nautical experience, but I love to dream of different places and different lives I could lead.
I started this on May 2nd, and since then I have applied with the Roommates for an apartment, I was rejected from the Drawbridge Opperator Job and I have grown the balls to ask my managers for references and so I am applying to better things than just the dredges of Indeed.
I am still listening to KSFR when I can, I am surprised I have kept this up, I am now lsitening when I walk sometimes, though I prefer when its mostly music, which has changed now that the money drive has started. I am hoping to donate when I get paid next week.
I also saw the Michael Jackson movie, high and eating popcorn with mustard. I saw it with the Coworkers and it was a great time. He is not someone I know a whole lot about, I really didn't know about the whole burns thing. I liked the cgi animals because I am terrified of chimps and do not want to look at a real one.
This might be all I do as the heat gets turned up on my life... this blog may be a bit on pause until my weekends become more clear... I keep telling people I will leave them and it is very painful to do. I came here not knowing anyone, and for a while I thought I never would. But I did make a life in Santa Fe, I failed at avaiding nesting, even if it was only emotionally.
That's all for this little blog post that somehow took me 9 days to write. ๐
Game Night Gallery
Literally several weeks ago (4/10) The Illustrators (and me) had game night via discord. We hit up all the classics: Gartic Phone, Skribbl.io and Jackbox!
Before we start, the music:
And now here's a gallery of images from that night:
| proof I am the Skribbl goat |
| exquisite corpse |
| exquisite corpse 2 (i did the head) |
| exquisite corpse 3 (i did the bewbs) |
| exquisite corpse 4 (i did the legs) |
| adam lambert break |
| exquisite corpse 5 |
| exquisite corpse 6 |
| exquisite corpse 7 |
| we rediscovered a banger |
| i am a witch and i am evil |
| a story... a trajic story.... |
This is the power of many creative minds working together to create beautiful work.
I hope you are inspired ๐
byeeeeeeeeeeeee


