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I really want to make a blog post because I have spent my weekend mainly alone, only talkin to the Jean Cocteau staff and Ester, the librarian I volunteer with. I am going through Tomodachi Life withdrawls and also reading way too much fiction and listening to way too much radio but that is leagues above YouTube shorts that it is okay, I think. 

I really have not been watching movies but I think I shouldn't force it. I've seen 37 out of my goal of 50 films and so I think I am doing just fine. I could have seen more, technichally I could've seen a thousand by now, but I am really a girl of a million hobbies.

this graph is outdated, from when it used to be a sheets endevor

I have a deep desire to watch anime again, though I have yet to really act on it. I have this giant spreadsheet, you see, that is the only thing I use notion for, truly for no reason. I should go back to google sheets but then I'd have to transfer a whole bunch of stuff over. Google sheets lets you make unlimited charts and graphs. 

I think my problem with not watching anything but Dr. Katz professional therapist uploads and Vinesauce is that I have a routine, I don't have a TV, and its really hard to find anything anymore. And also my horrible horrible horrible current wifi situation. If I did go back to anime, that blue section wold really start to take up most of that pie. 

A lot of people do not assume I am someone who knows anything nerdy because sometimes I wear skirts and also I already know wayyy too much about 18th and 20th centuary history. But I had a few years long phase that ended when I discovered Marie Antoinette (2006) and I replaced it with movie watching. And now I have youtube which I consume so much more of but pay attention to so much less.

I am hoping to change my routine with a change of location and perhaps you might see some media reviews in your very special future. 

Okay, that's it for a little rambling and something more organized to come soon (pleasepleaseplease)

Love u all!

Personal Manifesto for Tomorrow because I am going to bed now.

 I am going to use my laptop.

I am going to use my laptop and I am going to watch movies, not videos.

I am going to use my laptop to make things. I am going to stop playinng Tomodachi Life Living the Dream for a week. Seven days.

I am going to do the dishes when I get home tomorrow, I am going to sit at my desk, which I am going to clear.

I am going to figure out what is wrong with my wifi and I am going to have a stable wifi connection. 

I am going to get an email from one of the jobs I applied to and they will want to interview me and they will love me. 

I am going to restart my laptop and my wifi will work. 

If I let myself be more intentional with my evenings, I can achieve more in less time. I will go to bed earlier, I will have less headaches and I will watch the sunset. I will not realize my room is dark and the sun has set before I decide to make dinner.

I will watch a lot of movies. I will watch so many movies and read so much of my book.

I am going to put new batteries in my CD player and listen to CDs and the radio. 

I will wear sunscreen.

I will accept where and who I am, with the intention to improve, move closer to my goal. If I have an apartment, I need a job and plan and drive to make, volunteer, learn, go out. 

My wifi will work.

The library wifi will stay connected for more than three minutes before making me sign in. I will never have to sign into this library again.

I will have so many YouTube videos waiting for me when I am ready to reapproach YouTube.

I will find something else to do than look at Pinterest. Pinterest is okay when I am not home, but when I am home and I have my book, I do not need to look at Images.

I am going to use my laptop. 

I am going to recover through making, I am going to have less headaches, I am going to feel successful, and I am going to steal ibuprofin from work, but not too much. I do not want to hurt my liver.

I am going to use my laptop and I am going to post so much this post won't be on the main page in a week, when I am back to playing Tomodachi Life. I will then introduce you to Tomodachi Life and it will not be awkward that you and tomo are fighting for my attention.

My wifi will work for more than a few minutes and 

I am going to use my laptop.

I'm going to have a balcony!

 I have an apartment in Somerville, MA!! I refuse to live anywhere that doesn't have the most rickety looking landmarks and anything younger than baby Syracuse founded in 1820. I am extremely exited for a billion and one reasons, one of the highest being container gardening on my first ever balcony. I also can't wait to have multiple roommates and a real TV. Sometimes, it really sets in how survival mode Santa Fe has been for me. I hope to one day not have to choose between fun and necessity next time I am in this city. I want real snow and real store hours. I want a deli.

The last major pieces I need are a successful moveout and a job lined up. I have applied to enough spray-and-pray fake indeed positions and now I am using references and cover letters. PLEASE HIRE ME!! I will do anything for $20 an hour full time. 

I have moved on a bit from KSFR. I like it when I want company. But when I am writing and I am thinking and especially when I am applying to jobs, something I want a stream of every jazz song ever and a few ads for the third annual whiskey and cigar festival. So I have been listening to station 101.5, the Cat. I am listening to it now and I really like their choices except for their jazz vocal pieces. Those are either the wonderful classics or someone doing some horrible cover. Often a white man doing something his voice wasn't ever meant to do and he sounds cheesey. 

Oh my god now they're playing teh fucking ODD COUPLE THEME!! A song I didn't know why I knew until I used my phone to tell me.... don't let my dad find out about this. Also when is Gen Z going to discover the Odd Couple on YouTube shorts so it can take over my feed and I stop seeing Sachiko and her evening drinks bc I, too, will become a female alcoholic. 

I have fallen into a routine I often go in and out of which is that I can't watch anything but youtube but every youtbe video looks bad. Also, all I want to do is play video games. I haven't written a letter or really truly tried in my diary or read some non fiction which are all hobbies that, to me, take a little bit of effort but have a differnet kind of pay off than playing Tomodachi Life. I think part of the problem is my messy living room and always being in my bed. But I love my bed!

At some point I must make a post about all the things I feel about the new Tomodachi Life, which I have played several hours of but no one would know, since my switch has been offline for quite a while. I am a mega fan of the second Tomodachi life game, to the point of playing the japanese-only original for a little while (this feels like a cover letter but maybe I am writing too many cover letters). So I know what I loved and I know what I miss and I know what I am very happy isn't in the new game. 

Okay, I must go to bed and not ramble about something I know I could make an organized post about. I need to go to bed to prepare for work and work and work tmr!

Goodnight Krilltopia! 🖂🍞

I love you KSFR

 I've been listening to a lot of public radio as I wait for vinesauce to upload. The station I have found is KSFR (101.1 in northern NM). You can check in on their site, which also means I can listen in wherever I am. I like how it can be anything and there's nothing I can do about it. I started my morning with a story about the Gaza Flotilla and then listened to this, which is the closest I've ever gotten to actually reading Marx. 

I also like to listen to the music they play from all sorts of genres. If I don't listen to enough genres duirng the week I get bored with music. I've only become interested in the past day or so. I haven't actually spent a lot of time with the station but I 've already experienced so much. I really loved Jazz et Cetera which I did some stretches to before work on Friday. 

Other things going on include being tired, applying to jobs and thinking about this drawbridge opperator job I applied to. I don't really think I'll get it, I have almost no nautical experience, but I love to dream of different places and different lives I could lead. 

I started this on May 2nd, and since then I have applied with the Roommates for an apartment, I was rejected from the Drawbridge Opperator Job and I have grown the balls to ask my managers for references and so I am applying to better things than just the dredges of Indeed. 

I am still listening to KSFR when I can, I am surprised I have kept this up, I am now lsitening when I walk sometimes, though I prefer when its mostly music, which has changed now that the money drive has started. I am hoping to donate when I get paid next week. 

I also saw the Michael Jackson movie, high and eating popcorn with mustard. I saw it with the Coworkers and it was a great time. He is not someone I know a whole lot about, I really didn't know about the whole burns thing. I liked the cgi animals because I am terrified of chimps and do not want to look at a real one. 

This might be all I do as the heat gets turned up on my life... this blog may be a bit on pause until my weekends become more clear... I keep telling people I will leave them and it is very painful to do. I came here not knowing anyone, and for a while I thought I never would. But I did make a life in Santa Fe, I failed at avaiding nesting, even if it was only emotionally. 

That's all for this little blog post that somehow took me 9 days to write. 💚